Patience required

Patience required, everybody agrees to this fact. But, what is patience? One may say it is the capacity to wait indefinitely for something which may or may not happen. Another may say it is the capacity not to over-react to an adverse situation. Definitions can be many and all would lead to the fundamental theory that one should not give-in to emotions like happiness, sadness, fear, anger etc and should not get controlled by such emotions. Fairly easy right ? In defining it at least.

If one wants to know what are the emotions, its damn simple nowadays. All he has to do is look at those smiliey’s in whatsApp ( emoji’s might be a better word to use, many of those faces do not actually smile but do other things ).

In my opinion controlling my anger is the best thing to do to show that I have tremendous patience. This is nothing new, from ages this has been preached. And I sincerely try that every day, and that shows how success-less I have been!

“Do you get angry quite often? “the doctor had asked me once. This is when I had reluctantly gone to him for a minor ailment. Luckily, we have many types of doctors catering to different sections of people, to the rich, to the poor and to the in-betweens. Those were my young days, I was over confident that no sickness will affect me badly. So I had chosen a doctor who would just ask me to open my mouth to show him my tongue, probably to verify whatever symptoms I had narrated using that tongue were true. Then he would ask me “where is the pain?”. No elaborate  discussions, no complicated scans and follow ups – just a prescription for a general drug in 10 minutes and I would be out of his room. I hadn’t expected anything less from him either. But his question about my anger angered me a bit! He was checking whether I was having persistent high blood pressure in his crude method. By the rash way he looked at me and checked my blood pressure, it would have naturally gone up a few points momentarily, anyways ! He was trying to find out it remains at those levels even in his absence.

“Don’t get angry, that will increase your blood pressure” people had told me this also. I am always in confusion whether anger increases my BP or high BP makes me angrier, or is it a chain reaction. Whatever it is, end result is clear, it harms me. I know for sure it is bad for that vital organ which is right in the middle of my chest. Luckily it is not exploded yet due to the chain reaction!

If there is one place I cannot control my anger is on our roads, while I am driving. Every time before I switch on the engine, I tell myself, today I will be cool. If the auto guy suddenly turns right or even stops in the middle of the road with no indication, I will stop and smile at him. If somebody honks behind me unnecessarily, I will not look back and will act as if I am deaf. But I have never been successful, these guys get into my nerves. So what do I do, I get angry. I start with ABCs ( A for Assh-le, B for Bast-rd, C for Chuth-ya) ! Don’t be under the impression I use these ABCs loudly so that they hear it. I am able to control my anger at least to the level that those words are not heard by them. It is not because they don’t deserve to be called like that. It is because I am aware of the fact that they are more uncivilized than me that they may have a knife if not a gun tucked under their shirt. If they are provoked, next day people except me will be reading top story in the newspapers as an innocent, decent man got killed in road rage, police is still trying to nab the culprit!

So thing about me is that I control my anger only when the other party is strong, only when it becomes life threatening to me. In all other numerous occasions, where I have an upper-hand,  when I get angry on a weak target I just pile on to them, show my true potential when I am at my comfort zone! It is time I changed myself. I need to restrain my anger and not to be controlled by anger even in highly favorable instances. Then only I can claim I have some patience.